I try to look away, I try to force myself to think
This is not what it looks like, this is actually okay
It’s like a wound, fresh and hot
Pumping and crushing and crushing me,
Through the burning rotten flow of my veins
What is everything trying to tell me
What is the meaning of what I feel
Fucking me up
Sabotaging what wasn’t broken
Am I broken
Is it me
Is it fucking me
Is it me
Can I ever feel safe
Can I ever feel
Safe
Am I
Broken
All my fucking doubts
All my fucking pain
It’s throbbing it’s here, it’s making me ill
I try to look away, I try to force myself to think
This is not what it looks like, this is actually okay
It’s like a wound, fresh and hot
Pumping and crushing and crushing me,
Through the burning rotten flow of my veins
x4
The sickness is lurking
I feel it
It has started fueling my dreams again
Already
It has started changing my face
It’s in my head x3
Well yeah, that’s where everything is
In my fucking head
The sickness, the madness
The illogical, nonsensical reasons I find to explain it
Am I collapsing
Can I do it
Am I able to do it
Doubt, doubts
Paralysing doubts
Silently horrified
Vomiting my heart
Am I still here
Does it exist
It’s like a wound, fresh and hot
Pumping and crushing and crushing me,
Through the burning rotten flow of my veins
x6
Am I still here
Am I still here
Am I still here
Does it exist
Did it ever exist
Are we okay?
Saw Kanga last night in Houston , instantly was entranced by her sound , sucked me into the Kangakult vortex , so glad I got to see her live , should have looked into her sooner as Gary Numan was so supportive of her on the Revolution tour , oh now it’s time to catch up and get further involved Callum Gray
French ultraviolet blade runner who has just signed with Negative Gain records will release an eagerly anticipated new album 12/18/20. This record is gorgeous from the get. The spoken word poetry style is engaging and draws attention to the lyrics. It’s a drowning plea cutting through an ocean of depression, trying to break the water. The music is a slow electronic cascade weathering down the rocks. Sonically it’s like the other side of the same spectrum as Mr.Kitty. preciousken
A stellar cast of artists put their own shadowy spins on recent Bestial Mouths material—toward the goth club floor or into pure noise. Bandcamp New & Notable May 11, 2021
Darkwave synth that directly addresses our modern dystopian political environment, with proceeds going to the Voting Rights Project. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 17, 2018