Keep Me Closer

by grabyourface

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SnakeTD Saw her live in Leipzig, was really impressed. Great artist! Favorite track: Confession.
jared
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jared heart on your sleeve darkwave. so honest and beautiful, left me wanting more. Favorite track: Confession.
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Steven Gullotta Minimalist in a sense, this album from grabyourface bolsters her unique vision of industrial.
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psychomorphosis_1 "keep me closer " is a masterpiece of electronic goth music. Grabyourface sounds often for me like Anne Clark, but she has a very unique personal style. "Keep me closer " is dark, melancholic and aggressive sometimes. It's full of Pain and darkness. Favorite track: Doesnthurt.
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kathleenbaron forgetting <3
absolutely beautiful...
Bravo grabyourface and thank you for making such deep, genuine art! Favorite track: Forgetting.
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1.
03:45
I've got a confession to make Don’t even know why I’m here So much aggression to take Let go and I’ll disappear I used to have a vision I used to have objectives Now only have objections I can’t take one decision My own mind’s in division Facing my own collapsing Facing my indecision Forever I must relive I've got a confession to make Don’t know how long I’ll be here So much more than I can take So much that I can’t take I was my own world to make Instead I blew it all off I just ran out of love So I sit here and I break So I sit here and I break Down I break down I break down I break you and I break down Not knowing what I do best Knowing what I suck at best Not taking a break no rest I forgot why I left for Used to be clear in my head Used to know what I wanted Now I just know I’m unwell I know I’m fucking wasted Wasted for humanity Wasted for my family Wasted possibility But in the end do I care In the end who will care In the end no one care It will end and I swear I swear if I was given Another chance at this game I would do things differently Wouldn’t give up easily I Wouldn’t break like I do wouldn’t break down like I do But now I do I break down I break down I break you and I break down I break down I break down I break you and I break down
2.
So who am I The things I thought I was, I’m not. The things I thought mattered don’t I thought I knew where I was I’ve never been more lost And the ones I thought would care They don’t So I’m sitting on my own, comfortable. Wondering if it’s worth it To start again, or to take care of what I already have Even though it’s lost its value Even though it’s lost its shine. Even though They will always bring me pain They will never understand They will always think I’m wrong It won’t matter in the end So I’m sitting in my car, far I’m sitting in the dark, wondering Listening to my own music and crying Should I turn back and be grateful Or should I sit straight and move on from the ones That will always bring me pain That will never understand That will always think I’m wrong They won’t matter in the end So what is it worth What does it mean to be mistaken about everything When everything you believe in disappears When everything that mattered never existed When you were blind, confused, lying to yourself, And suddenly the illusion wears off What do you see, what do you do What is your next step When you’ve forgotten how to walk And you’ve got no-one left to hold on to?
3.
03:50
Well I’m sad to see That this is how it works And I’m sad for the time That it took me to get it That it took me to get it I’m sad to realise That half of growing up Also means understanding That sometimes you can’t fix things Sometimes you can’t fix things And I wanted to prove And I wanted to make it And I wanted so bad To shape things the way they look nice Even if they aren’t nice I don’t know anymore Does everyone feel that Does everyone go through Life while pretending Everything’s ok And hide all the fuck-ups And hide all the pain And hide all the broken Hide all the not normal Under a carpet So this is what life is The reality is We're all fucking broken We struggle to cover up We struggle to pretend 3 We try and stay as safe As we possibly can As the lightest blow Might break us apart again (And we had it together again) So we don't call for help We say we are alright After all we're alright Everyone is alright Nobody is crying When no-one is watching Nobody is thinking every night after night This is too hard for me Make it stop let me be Make it stop make it stop Stop coming after me I won’t be saving the world I’m just another one I’m just another soul Don't know what's going on And got nothing where to go I have to accept That sometimes I can’t fix things x4 I don’t know anymore Does everyone feel that Does everyone go through Life while pretending Everything’s ok When it is not ok And hide all the fuck-ups And hide all the pain And hide all the broken Hide all the not normal Under a carpet A carpet of lies I don’t know anymore My shield is made of glass My shield doesn’t hide The pain and the broken Everything’s not ok Not everything’s ok I don’t care anymore I care so very much I thought I could fix I thought I could make it I thought I could make it I thought I could make it
4.
05:14
It doesn’t hurt me. I didn’t realise I was in such pain. Probably because I wasn’t. I was in a passive, black and white pain, because I knew. Because I saw it coming. Because I’m used to it. Or maybe because I’m not 22 anymore. I was keeping myself from jumping, from diving too deep in. I knew, and I was broken. Maybe this is gonna be how I am from now on. Maybe it’s not about sensing the bad stuff coming, maybe it’s about changing, irrevocably. How life changes us. How the shit that happens to us changes us. Irreversibly. How we fall in love. How we keep ourselves from falling too much. How we stretch a safety net before jumping from now on, after having broken a few bones. After having almost thrown up our own heart. After seeing our own blood, staining the ground. Staining the sheets. Blurring our sight. Blood, blood. So we no longer fall in love, anymore. We trip, we stumble in love. We get vertigo, and we realise how hard we’d fall. So we cling to the staircase balustrade, and start going down. 2.18 Slowly. Slowly we step down, then crouch, then kneel. Slowly we take off our shields, one at a time. One wrong move,one loud noise and the shields are back on, and we run back up the stairs. Cutting ourselves on the way. The time it took to put that shield back on, we were vulnerable. And now we’ve got a bloody lip. And we look down again, and we just see that sharp edge that cut deep in our lip, and the wound is throbbing, and that’s the only thing we see anymore. And we cry, softly. Silently. On top of the stairs. Looking down. Because we’re hurt, because we knew we could get hurt, but also because our past experience of getting hurt allowed us to get out of it with just a bloody lip this time. But that, knowing that, that hurts. And we know this isn’t gonna get better. And we’re scared all the time. This is something we’ve gotta learn to live with. It goes with the shields.
5.
02:44
Ça fait mal Ça fait mal de savoir que tu me comprendras jamais Ça m'fait mal de savoir que ce sera jamais assez Ça fait mal de réaliser que tu verras jamais l'effort Le travail et les larmes Juste parce que je suis pas comme toi
6.
04:28
For everytime I loved you For everytime For everytime I loved you For everytime For everytime I loved you You broke me You broke me You broke me For everytime I loved you You broke me You killed me
7.
02:49
Where are you going What are you doing What is your meaning What is / what is your meaning Nothing makes sense in the way you do things Nothing makes sense, you’re empty you’re obscene Your face disgusts me Your world sickens me You don’t feel the urgency With which I live Explain to me Explain Explain to me What it is What is it to live You Breathe But what do you see When you die Will you even feel it Again I’m alien For not caring enough For caring too much For seeing through the cracks Why do you do that Why do you pretend Why do you wake up And do the same shit again Why do you not care if you care that much Have you forgotten what we are I’ll set it on fire Don’t you know I will set it on fire You’re fake, you’re hollow Explain Explain to me What it is What is it to live You Breathe But what do you see When you die Will you even feel it Explain Explain to me What it is What is it to live You Breathe But what do you see When you die Will you even feel it
8.
03:34
A monster nested deep inside You’re a ghost you’re not real You’re me without being me You’re what I inflict to myself You’re the lies i spread across my own eyes Blinded by myself, pulling my own trigger I know nothing is real Just call my name, i’ll hear your cries Just call my name, and I will rise I’ll slash your thousands eyes I’ll crush your shameful lies I’m not what you’ve been screaming, I’m not any of your lies You made me lose my mind You thought I wasn’t strong I will Find you And I will Break you You made me lose my mind You thought I wasn’t strong I will Find you And I will Break you Is it the end my friend, is it the end? My temples are pulsating Your illusion wears off I’m watching you fade You know you’re getting weaker, And still you twist my words and still you try to sink me And you’re turning black as I’m getting strength You are like a ghost but you’re half dead Your fake reality fading out with you You made me lose my mind You thought I wasn’t strong I will Find you And I will Break you You made me lose my mind You thought I wasn’t strong I will Find you And I will Break you
9.
03:14
Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes I have to return some videotapes I have to return some videotapes Where are you going? Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes I have to return some videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes I have to return some videotapes I can't explain the exact mechanism but it has something to do with certain videotapes Videotapes? Videotapes. Videotapes? Videotapes. Videotapes? Videotapes. Videotapes. Videotapes. Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes I have to return some - Videotapes Videotapes Videotapes I have to return some videotapes I have to return some - I've gotta return some videotapes!
10.
You're a fucking psycho! You're a sadist! You're a terrible person. You're a lunatic. You're a fucking psycho! I killed a lot of people You're a fucking psycho! You fucking psycho! I killed a lot of people You're a fucking psycho! You're a fucking psycho! You're a fucking psycho! -fucking psycho!
11.
We can end this We can make it better We've already fought battles that we won. We could do it again We could do it Bigger Better More We could change the world We could build it anew We could bring down the walls that we were made to build between each other in this totalitarian individual state We could put an end to this forced solitude and rise, as one, as many, as the humans we are And gain back the dignity, the rights the compassion we lost, Willingly, cause we’ve been told that’s how a civilised society works All it takes is to wake up All it takes is to care When we care, we can Just remember Don’t let things get to you Don’t let them tell you you’re wrong Don’t let them tell you you can’t They don’t like it, when things are good for everyone They only like it when things are good for them Just remember Be relentless Don’t let them catch their breath And when they’re down, don’t catch feelings Don’t give them pity, they wouldn’t give you any Crush them like they would crush you Crush them for your fallen friends Crush them for your kids Crush them for a better future Keep your enemies close

about

Keep Me Closer is a journey through acceptance that things are fucked up, people are broken and we can't always fix them.
But yet, despite everything, despite the pain, some things we can do. Some things we can make better.
We've already fought battles that we won. We can do it again.

Keep your enemies close.
Keep me closer.

credits

released December 22, 2018

Thanks to my family, without which I would have been physically unable to finish this album. I know I'm not the most family-minded person at times, but I love you.

Thanks to my friends for always supporting me, listening to my tracks, listening again, telling me I'm not shit when I think I'm shit, and believing in me since day 1.

Thanks to Jody (Star Noir) for having been there every step of the way as always, for your creative input, for questioning me when I don't want to question myself, and for not questioning me when I question myself too much.
Thanks for teaching me mixing, mastering, Photoshop, and all the other things. Thanks for the words you say when I'm down and want to give up music. Thanks for being there.


Music, Lyrics, Production, Mixing and Mastering by Grabyourface (Marie Lando) except for Mixing on Nowake by Star Noir (Jody Coombes).

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